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Hello, so below is a tale of woe that no doubt people have heard dozens of times but any guidance or thoughts would help, (details are vague as I'd rather no one being able to work out who I am) So I joined the police very young but it was a dream job for me, it's all I'd wanted to do it since i was a kid although unlike most I could never see myself doing any one job for 30/40 years so I never went in being what I'd call job p...... I got 5 years in, a real rollercoaster, some fantastic achievements & experiences but a lot of down points, towards the end, despite being under no illusion the job would be easy, I had the following feelings -Bitterness at the way police were viewed & treated. -Bored of the internal competition between departments (e.g people being obsessed with joining firearms, other departments arguably not pulling their weight ,just the general feeling the "blue light family" isn't quite as it's sold) -Amazed by the poor leadership & terrified by the quality of people being promoted & recruited -Feeling that you was thought worse of for being proactive & hardworking -Frustrated by the ever increasing mental health, "missing" people & Facebook squabbles and gradually feeling less able to help -Scared that you are always one mistake away not just from sack (that can happen anywhere) but from a lengthy and public investigations -Bored of feeling friends saw me as a copper first and a person second -The restrictions on private life (the feeling I couldn't do some hobbies and interests for reasons too boring to go into) -The cancelled days off and shifts (this one I could live with if there wasn't so much of the above) All this led me to think, take the good memories & experiences but get out why you can and are young enough to change careers. I was worried I'd regret it but I walked out feeling like a weight was off my shoulders. In short, I felt the job was taking more and more and giving less and less. I appreciate every job has it down sides but police seemed to have a intense mix of issues. However after leaving I have a feeling that I can't really explain in words but giving it a go I feel sadness, like for all it's faults I was passionate about my job, I was ok at it and it was motivating. I feel like for better or worse being a copper is what I was meant to do. (cheesy i know) Obviously there's personal things at play but I was just wondering if anyone has had experience of this or know people who have ? How they coped with civi life? If maybe there's better ways of coping or dealing with above concerns? Any signs the job will get better? Just after general thoughts or words of wisdom really. Sorry for length of post and thanks in advance